I know I haven't blogged since the first week in July, but it has been a rough 3 weeks since I returned from Ukraine. I appreciate every one's concern and e-mails about my where-a-bouts. I will only say that I will try to do better from here on out.
Let me just give you a quick, but very brief run down of the events as they've played out. On paper they may not seem all that big, but from our prospective they have felt huge and consuming.
We get back from Ukraine. The next week I'm in complete jet-lag meltdown. Others had no problems getting back on track. It took me about 6 days to really feel like myself again. Oh and the same time that I'm trying to catch up on sleep, my wife Sarah returns to work which means several things. One big thing is that I'm still behind in my sleep and now I'm at home the entire week with a 7 week old baby. YIKES!
Taking Chloe to daycare on that first day the following week was the next big challenge. It was horrible enough for me, but Katie really took it hard. As we were leaving she stood in front of the window to the room and stared back at her. She got in the car and erupted in tears..."I miss her already," she cried. I held back the tears but I've been there and done it before so I held it together. Chloe did fine at daycare and has since adjusted just fine...as has Katie!
Thankfully my schedule allows me flexibility so I can work at home and not necessarily have to go into the office. I keep Chloe usually until 10 and then have her at daycare by 10:30...return either home to work on my school work or to the PBC Missions Office. She stays there 5 hours and then I go get her at 3:30. Upon my return home, I spend time watching her learn how to smile, feed her, change her and rock her to sleep. I've become a Mr. Mom to say the least. Sarah has supper waiting for her when she gets home.
Sarah has obviously really had a struggle upon returning to work. She didn't want to go back. Who can blame her? The very day I took her to daycare I got a job offer at my old career that was a real temptation. Part time job in Beckley, but with full time pay and benefits. After much prayer I turned it down much to Sarah's dismay. She was ready to turn in her notice and stay at home with our beautiful little girl.
I just couldn't do it. I just could NOT go back to that place and work for them. I kept feeling like God was telling me that He has called me to new things and not to the things of the past. A dear friend who had no idea what I was going to told me that the Lord asked her to share this scripture with me...Act 26:16 Now get to your feet! For I have appeared to you to appoint you as My servant and witness. You are to tell the world what you have seen and what I will show you in the future.
Act 26:17 And I will rescue you from both your own people and the Gentiles. Yes, I am sending you to the Gentiles
Act 26:18 to open their eyes, so they may turn from darkness to light and from the power of Satan to God. Then they will receive forgiveness for their sins and be given a place among God's people, who are set apart by faith in Me.'
I knew once I read that verse that God was reminding me of my calling and that He's telling me to be a fisher of men, not a trainer of salesmen. It was so hard to say no because my wife wanted it so bad, but I'm so thankful that she is a woman who trusts her husband to hear from God.
Every since I've walked away from that offer, it seems like we've been reminded of our financial needs so many many times and the fact that the job offer would have solved so many of those challenges. I just have to believe that the enemy is just trying to distract and lure me away with these things. I also just have to believe that God is up to something great in our lives.
We've also been looking at our housing options. We are running out of space and feeling very much like it's time something happened in our living situation. I love this land that we live on and it holds much sentimental value. We are trusting God to work out whatever, whenever...I confess though we are getting a bit antsy to do something.
So Finally after 3 really chaotic weeks we are starting to settle into a routine and schedule. Chloe is doing MUCH better in her sleep patterns and she often will sleep 6 hours at a time. Sarah usually gets up with her around 2 and I will get up and just stay up with her when she wakes back up to eat again at 5 or 6. She's adorable and we love her oh so much. It's so exciting to see her grow and evolve into the girl and woman that God has destined and purposed her to be!
Thanks for your patience and faithfulness. I will likely be posting in the future 2 to 3 times a week, usually Tuesday and Thursday and maybe on Friday.
I've also started up on FACEBOOK. You can check out many of my pics from mission trips and family by going directly to my page at www.facebook.com/trailblazer4
Be Blessed,
Ron
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